Thank You for Being my Soul Mate

   If I have learned one thing in this life, it is that I don't have a soul. I am a soul, I have a body. The deep seeded emotions that seem to entirely control my existence are governed by this soul that I am so fortunate to call my own. I am growing to love who I am at the very core. I am learning to realize what my sensitivity means in way of being a friend, a lover, a contributor to society --and in all of this I am seeing just how valuable of an attribute it truly is. It has been quite the adventure discovering myself, and before I can pride myself in these accomplishments, I must pay gratitude where it is due. In this journey not only have I found myself, but I have found my soul mate.

Never did I know I'd find my soul mate in my best friend.

     

    I am not sure if 'find' is the appropriate word in this case, for you have been there all along. I grew up with the fairytale perspective of soul mates; the one in which there is a boy for every girl and love is this epic journey of falling ever so quickly into a perfect life together. I am here to tell you that that does not always happen. Your soul mate does not have to be a boy you fall in love with at first sight and live happily ever after with. For me, it is simple, my soul mate is the person who has stood by me through everything. The one who despite all of my less than intelligent life decisions, loves me unconditionally. My backbone when I seem to have lost mine, and my other half. Thank you, Emily, for being my soul mate. 

Thank you for listening to my boy drama

When I am confused, frustrated, hurt or otherwise needing you to listen about my usually dysfunctional love life, I know that you will be there. Even if its two in the morning, or you've heard the same story four hundred times. Thank you.

Thank you for being wierd

Let's be honest, I am probably one of the strangest individuals you will ever meet. It is so comforting to know that I have a best friend who not only doesn't judge me, but participates in my strange oddities along side me. Thank you for the weird voices, silly jokes, and running around like we're crazy.

Thank you for wiping my tears

Everyone that truly knows me knows how much I hate crying. You have become my outlet for all of these built up emotions to be let go. I can't express enough how thankful I am that I can be comfortable enough with you to be myself, tears and all. Thank you for not judging me when I make that stupid, ugly "I'm-crying-way-too-hard-to-control-my-face-muscles" face that I make when I cry. Thank you for letting my tears soak your t-shirts while you hug the sadness out of me. Thank you for keeping me sane.

Thank you for reminding me of my dad

Most people don't know how to deal with my mourning my father and in turn we all just avoid talking about it. Thank you for reminding me that it's okay to talk about the hard things in life. You are the first person to point something out and say something along the lines of, "Amber, your dad would have loved this." Thank you for recognizing how instrumental my father was (and still is) in my life, and not being scared to talk to me about him and the times we shared. Thank you for helping me grieve and reminding me that everything will be okay. 

Thank you for telling me I'm worth something

It is no secret that I am insecure to a major fault, but thank you for reminding me that I don't have a reason to be insecure. Thank you for telling me I'm beautiful, smart, a good friend, funny, and worth everything my heart desires. Thank you for not letting me be too hard on myself. Thank you for reminding me that I am something special.

Thank you for appreciating my heart

My favorite thing about myself is my capability to love others. I am such a sensitive soul with a heart for people, and many do not understand why I am this way. Some even tell me I am too sweet, too loving, or too giving.  Thank you for constantly reminding me that this is my greatest quality, that there is no such thing as too much love, and reminding me not to settle on anyone who doesn't see and appreciate it. 

Thank you for snuggling me when I am sad/lonely

When life gets you down, what's better than a cuddle fest with your best girl!?!

Basically Em, I love you to the moon and back and twice around the stars. I am so thankful that you keep me honest, true to myself, and not settling for crappy things in life. I am so thankful to be able to call you my best friend and soul mate. I truly have no clue where I'd be without you.