Contrite

I can love you more with each day that passes,
But I’ll hurt you with each day too.
Maybe fleeing would save you time
A departure wrought with the desire to protect you.
A dichotomy of love and pain,
I’ll heal then rip you open.
A perplexing precipice of discomfort,
I can’t take back the words unspoken.
Incapable of guarding your heart completely,
For I am it’s greatest foe.
Secrecy to guard the apotheosis,
Destroying the pedestal with each new thing you know.

Please forgive me of my trespasses,
The old ones and the new.
For when I look back as I walk,
Know my favorite sight will be you.
I only wish to keep you safe,
From my demons that live inside.
For yours is the only heart I care to guard,
Failure because I didn’t confide.
Your future is auspicious, paved with stones of promise
The journey you walk will be bright.
I’ll stand and admire your growth from a distance,
Just know that my heart is contrite.

Mightier than the storm within me

I’m drowning, my head won’t stay afloat.
I crave reprieve from my own mind,
A toxic wasteland of emotion.
A never ceasing desolation, no hope do I find.

Today the weight of this world may be too much to bare,
My arms are tired and my heart is exhausted.
I want to rest, to find peace.
I am afraid I felt too much and now I’ve simply lost it.

Take this heart, Lord and fill it with your love.
Remind me to live to share your heart with man.
I beg for peace and understanding
God you are mightier than the storm within me, I praise you with all that I am.

“Now is as good of a time as any”

Words that reverberate with a clarity more profound and true. 

A cycle of settlement, resentment on repeat

—An idea lost in you. 

They soon will recede

You can’t swallow this heart in your obscuration,
Thoughts crash in but they soon will recede.
Tides may rise and the skies darken still,
But fear you will lose your grip on me.

Through ridiculous love and adoration
My heart will be kept afloat.
You can’t swallow this heart in your obscuration
For my God has called it his own.